I got home today and went about my usual routine. As I was checking emails, etc. Yuki brought her bunny to the desk for me to throw just like every other day. I tossed it out the door a few times and figured everything is fine.

Then after dinner I'm sitting here watching a show with Yuki curled up on my lap. Another normal part of the routine. So I figure her nails are probably due to be trimmed and I don't wanting her clawing up snow when he gets home tomorrow so I check them. And see it...

One of her toes is completely swollen and infected. I freaked out but tried to stay calm so I could see if she had something stuck in there or had a cut. I saw something in between her toes, but I think it was just litter or dirt. I removed it carefully with her struggling to get away. Doubtful the cause of the problem, but I had to try. It's all swollen where her nail comes out. It looks so painful ;_; I know how bad a goddamn hangnail hurts me... this I can't imagine.

I called my Mom and she said to try gently dipping her paw in warm water to try and soak it a bit to ease the swelling and pain and clean it out. I gingerly picked her up after testing the lukewarm water. I gently lowered her down as tenderly as I could and the millisecond her paw hit the water, she made me look like I fell asleep with Freddy Krueger on the loose. Bad idea.

I then tried gently trying to just wrap it in a warm wash cloth while holding her. Freddy entered the room once again. Bad idea number two.

So at this point, call the vet. I'm taking her tomorrow at 9:00am since they said since she's eating and trying to play even though her paw hurts she'll make it until tomorrow morning. She keeps holding it up when she's sitting and seems extremely uncomfortable.

Even bean her arch nemesis seems genuinely concerned for her well being.

I just feel so bad. I feel helpless like there is nothing I can do. Also, I was so excited and happy to finally have snow home tomorrow and now I'm just worried and getting wrinkles. Trying to get her to the vet tomorrow on my own is going to be a real experience as well. I'm sure we'll make it work. I REALLY hope snow's flights and travel stuff goes perfectly because I really can't handle any more stress at the moment.

I honestly don't know how parents do it. If I'm this upset and scared about a feline child... I can't even imagine a human one! I'm getting concerned that my future children are going to have to try and explain to their friends why Mommy makes them wear a hazmat suit with built in knee and elbow pads to school every day >_<

I'll post tomorrow on the boo boo paw developments. I'm sure taking this crazy furball on an outside adventure will make for some funny stories. I hope just funny stories -_-; So worried. I hate today so very much.

Everyone cross your fingers and paws that everything will be OK.