Day three. I've been on my own for three days now. I realized I have more to write and get out of me than my kitty photos. I have completely lost my internet mojo. My creative mojo. I used to buy stones and carve them for fun. I used to paint just to see what would happen. I used to write blog entries not just about what was cool on the internet, but what was great and sinister about life. I used to find time for this stuff. I made time for this stuff.

I have so much to do for this wedding. I don't care about table cloths, or flowers or other stuff. I let the professionals tell me what to do and write a cheque. I do however have to design the invitations and other assorted stuff. That is so much pressure for me. I know what I want, just have to do it. I wish I was in school again... or could time travel back for just a day. I found it so inspiring to be around artists all day. Now, I sit around people who deal with payments and accounting. It kills my soul a bit every day.

I need some music to charge me... I have to get up and just do something even if it stinks, until something that doesn't stink happens. It always does.

Well, I took the first and most intimidating step for getting mojo back. I took a picture of myself as well as the cats. I haven't done this in so long, couple years? It was intimidating. I guess I need to embrace I'm not who I was in the past. I need to put myself out there and just write and create and not care if it sucks or if I'm too old or not good enough. Crappy photo taken with the powerbook built in cam, but there it is.

I wouldn't feel right not posting a kitty pic as well... we tried having a movie night earlier but the girls weren't feeling the Ed Norton Hulk movie since I guess they've seen it before. They took naps.

Finding a way to beat creative cones in the road is so hard. I'll get there though ^_^ The house is lonely with out snowy... but he's off getting his creative brain working and I want to do the same while he's away. I will take this time and make something out of it. It's all we have right?

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