It's one of those things I find myself thinking about a lot. Do people still believe in it or is it just another word tossed around. What happens when you forget about it? I worry that the day to day grind makes people forget about hope. That it's easier to just deal with it and be meh than make something change. I'm so guilty of this. Not sure I can keep doing this design thing. None of it is making me feel like I'm creating something worthwhile. Just stupid logos for stupid corporate idiots that pick it apart until it's well... shit.

I get so consumed by this tech-fake art that when I actually sit down to draw something I can't. I don't believe in my hands holding a pencil. I want so much to create things that will make you smile that it blocks me more when it turns out like ass. I'm not sure how to fix my brain reguarding this situation or where I need to find inspiration. Maybe I'm on the computer too much. Maybe it's winter depression setting in and not being outside. Maybe I just miss hugging someone since I haven't in months. Maybe it's corporate horseshit that wore me down to nothing. Maybe I have misplaced hope?

I sure hope not. hehe.

It's times like these I wish my damn super powers would kick in so I could just go fight crime or something worthwhile. Bah. *skips off to find some gamma rays and poke spiders*

I'm sure things will even out eventually. Gonna start thowing my resume out all over the country and see what happens. You know you need to take a step back when you're up after midnight and a commercial for some tech school offering an "exciting career in criminal justice" actually looked appealing. Well to my defense there were vicious barking dogs and guns and a cool badge haha! Anyway, back to the orcs. Just needed a small vent.
Rawrs